A year ago we lost our mom. She was our mom.
How do you reconcile that? How do you account for that?
There is no accounting. There is only grief that every single person experiences in their life -
To lose someone you love. I miss her every day. I still even have days when I curl up and cry myself to sleep. Mostly it's happy memories and gratitude.
But sometimes. Only tears. And aching for my dad.
It has been a year of struggle and sadness, blessing and bounty. So much has happened that I feel like I'm just starting to get a handle on it now. If "a handle" is what you get on death. Her birthday passed, dad's birthday...all our birthdays and the special times and days and there was a void.
She was only 73, vibrant and busy. It didn't seem like The Right Time.
Would I have thought differently if I got five more years, or ten? Would I have been more ready? Would I have wept less? Probably not. She prays for us and all her grand children, I know. And she waits for us to join her in perfection.
I sense her presence in my life every day.
April 22nd will be etched in my mind forever more, no less than the birth dates of my babies and our wedding anniversary.
![]()
![]()
How do you reconcile that? How do you account for that?
There is no accounting. There is only grief that every single person experiences in their life -
To lose someone you love. I miss her every day. I still even have days when I curl up and cry myself to sleep. Mostly it's happy memories and gratitude.
But sometimes. Only tears. And aching for my dad.
It has been a year of struggle and sadness, blessing and bounty. So much has happened that I feel like I'm just starting to get a handle on it now. If "a handle" is what you get on death. Her birthday passed, dad's birthday...all our birthdays and the special times and days and there was a void.
She was only 73, vibrant and busy. It didn't seem like The Right Time.
Would I have thought differently if I got five more years, or ten? Would I have been more ready? Would I have wept less? Probably not. She prays for us and all her grand children, I know. And she waits for us to join her in perfection.
I sense her presence in my life every day.
April 22nd will be etched in my mind forever more, no less than the birth dates of my babies and our wedding anniversary.
Mom and her first grandbaby. I get to hold my first grandbaby in the next couple of weeks.
Thanks for showing me how, Mom.
addendum at the bottom - this is not the first grand baby. It's a very cute grand baby, but for accuracy when this blog is used as some kind of historical defining document, the picture BELOW this one is ACTUALLY the first grand baby.
addendum at the bottom - this is not the first grand baby. It's a very cute grand baby, but for accuracy when this blog is used as some kind of historical defining document, the picture BELOW this one is ACTUALLY the first grand baby.
